when a person does what is right, his neighbours jeer at him and despise him.
when this same person does what is wrong(as is befitting, for it is his weakness), those who once called him a brother now despise and attempt to rebuke him in their way(because he did not listen [to their words]).

what is this man to do- labour on in following the path of righteousness? or may he as well give such a path up(since either way, he is despised?) this does not excuse the man of his wrongdoing, but it does not justify the actions of those who attempts to rebuke him in their ungodly manner.

i have observed this of man- that at the time of their own wrongs, Man will not be truly willing to listen. but when this very same error is committed by someone else, everyone will be too eager to point it out.

I had intended to leave the faith since i was condemned at the time that i needed encouragement most, from those closest to me. God held me through, gave me a measure of hope through someone whom I've not spoken to for a long while. (even if she didn't know who i am, her verse encouraged me)

because this is what i have received, i have resolved to not believe what i hear or see of people. this is my conviction, that everyone is not what they seem; while they may have failing points, by God's grace, i will strive to learn to accept them (because we all have weaknesses).

God always allows me to reflect when I'm jogging, maybe that's one of the reasons why He's given it to me.
As I was jogging, God spoke to me with this verse:

Isaiah 41:8-10
But you, Israel, my servant,
Jacob, whom I have chosen,
the offspring of Abraham, my friend;
9 you whom I took from the ends of the earth,
and called from its farthest corners,
saying to you, “You are my servant,
I have chosen you and not cast you off”;
10 fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

This verse made me glad that I'm going through this situation, because it has cemented (at least, in part) my reliance upon God. I have no one closer to me than God, and it is because of situations like these that have put me in this position. I know I'm growing to seek God and to seek to be more like how God wants me to be, because instead of turning away, God has put my thinking in this path that I will seek to be glorifying to Him.

I want to thank you, who has driven me down this path- because of what you've done, God has grown me in such a way.

This is my last post at this journal.

Much as it causes me to miss it, I've come to realise that as I move journals- God grows me in stages. This stage has to end, and another has to come. Because "we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit." [2 Cor 3:18]


Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. [1 Cor 13:4-7] this is the love(agape) of the Lord, whatever falls without of the mentioned is not of His love.

For "Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. " [James 3.13] Because "the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere. And a harvest of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace." [James 3:17-18]

vividity.

i cant bear to leave this journal.


"Thinking of a place I can go
Dreaming of a peaceful escape
Would anybody care if I leave or if I just drift away
I can feel the blood in my veins
So this heart isn’t silver plated I can polish it so it can look just like gold"
- Geoff Byrd, Silver-plated.

been frequenting garageband while mugging.
i think geoff byrd's voice and songs are really really good! like movie soundtrack material

here's to you, my once-close friend.
i nvr thought that, of evone who wld reply me, you wld be the one to give me assurance.

psalm 37.5 "Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act."
God's voice thunders in marvelous ways; He does great things beyond our understanding. Life is one complicated mess, but God strings them together, like a perfect melody.

my thanks to you is beyond how i can express.
your verse comforted me when i was about to leave the faith for real- when there was no reason for me to stay on; when even those closest to me were farthest; and God seemed so far off.